The birthday boys!!!

I am little late on this post but Evan and Derek had their birthdays at the end of August. Evan is officially 8 and Derek is officially 4! I love that their birthdays are so close together! For some siblings that might not work out but it works very well for them! They love to celebrate together! It seems to work for Ryan too because people feel bad that he is the only one not getting a gift so he gets one too! ;) When I was pregnant with Derek I was trying to will myself to give birth on Evan's birthday because I thought it would be sweet if they shared a birthday but no such luck! Two days later they induced me because Ryan was a 10lb-er baby and they worried that my 3rd boy would be a little sumo wrestler. Turns out he was only 8lb 7 oz... still not too shabby. But my boys are growing up and I am so very proud!

Blogging under the influence

For the record, I am dead sober. Although truth be told, I could use a drink. But I am blogging under the influence of high emotions. Another shared list has come out. A big one of approx 175 children and YET AGAIN our agency has no match for us. I was 36 when we officially began our paper chase. We actually went to an adoption meeting just after I turn 36. Now 40 looms large in the distance and we have yet to find our child.

I haven't been blogging recently because what can I say that isn't totally a bummer? And frankly a bummer post is the least of emotions bubbling at the surface. I feel very very angry. Angry at our agency. Angry at myself for choosing them. Angry because every phone conversation with them feels as futile as nailing jello to the wall. And mostly angry because I feel completely powerless in all this.

This is why I haven't been blogging because adoption-wise I haven't got anything positive to say. But I needed to post something to have just the smallest release of these bad emotions.

Need a laugh today? Love these Evian babies!

Happy 4th of July!

Derek's metamorphosis

Before... adorable! :)



During... the change is taking place



Something is happening...



After... terrifying!!! ;)



Derek aka the lochness monster

Our trip to Hershey Park ~ the sweetest place on earth!

The Graduate

Ryan officially graduated from preschool on Wednesday. It was a fantastic ceremony. The stinkin' cute caps and gowns were enough to bring me to tears but watching them walk in to "Pomp and Circumstance" and cross over the symbolic bridge sitting center stage and each recite the poem about how they were moving on, well it was a tear jerker. We are so proud of Ryan... for so many things. He is wonderful. I always say to Dave, "Ryan is a blessing". He really is.